Sample text for A mortal terror : A Billy Boyle World War II mystery / James R. Benn.
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Kim Philby owed me one. I'd helped him out back in London,
and he told me to ask if I ever needed a favor. Well, now that I
needed one, I didn't hesitate. I wanted to be there when--not if,
when--Diana Seaton returned from her mission.
Philby was the only person who could make that happen, so I
was glad he was in my debt. As head of the British Secret Intelligence
Service's Mediterranean operations, he controlled all the spies,
saboteurs, and agents operating in neutral nations and behind enemy
lines from Portugal to Turkey. That included Diana Seaton of the
Special Operations Executive, who had been sent into Rome, disguised
as a nun, to establish contact with a pro-Allied circle within
How do I, a lowly lieutenant, know all this? Because Diana
Seaton is the love of my life, and I worry about her day and night.
A lot of people worry about each other in this war, but unlike them,
I can do something about it. I work for General Dwight David
Eisenhower, which gives me access to secrets out of the reach of most
colonels and many generals. The fact that in private I call him Uncle
Ike doesn't hurt either. It allows me to get involved with men like
Kim Philby. When Philby called two days ago to tell me he was good
for the favor I'd asked, Uncle Ike gave me a five-day leave and told
me to stay out of trouble. I'm going to Switzerland, I told him, how
much trouble could there be in a neutral country?
As I stamped my feet on the station platform, trying to keep
warm, I thought I might have been off the mark. It was cold, and
the sun was casting its last feeble yellow rays sideways from the west.
I watched the German and Italian border guards, about fifty yards
away, their frosted breath trailing like plumes as they walked. Chiasso
is a border town, and the railroad runs right through it. The platform
stretches from the station on the Swiss side south to the Italian
border, marked by a customs house and crossing gate. Philby and I
had been waiting an hour, nervously watching the train halted
behind the gate, still on Italian soil. Diana was on board, or so I'd
hoped, until a half dozen men in leather trench coats entered the
train, and a platoon of German soldiers with submachine guns surrounded
it. The black locomotive released a sigh of steam from its
boiler, as if straining at the leash for the final stretch.
"Gestapo," Philby had said. "Not to worry. She has good travel
papers, signed by the German general commanding rail transport in
"The Gestapo can sniff out phony papers, no matter how good."
"Oh, they're the real thing, old boy," Philby said, clenching his pipe
between his teeth. "This general is quite the churchgoer, especially
since he arranged for the transport of several thousand Italian Jews."
"To where?" I knew the Nazis were rounding up Jews everywhere,
and shooting a lot of them. But I didn't know where they
kept transporting them to, or why. It didn't make sense when they
needed railroads for troops and supplies, but then nothing in this
war made much sense.
"To those camps in the east we keep hearing about. This old general
began to feel guilty, more so after we landed in Italy. He let it be
known he'd be glad to do a small favor for the Vatican now and then."
"Isn't it dangerous to give him Diana's name? Or whatever name
"Yes, it would be," Philby said absently, as he knocked the ash
from his pipe and jammed it into his coat pocket. "That's why she's
coming out with a group of twenty nuns. Didn't want to tell you the
details before now, you understand."
"Sure, security. Lot of that going around."
"The cover story is that they're being sent to a convent outside
of Zurich, to relieve crowding in the Holy See. Solid on all counts.
Look there," he said, pointing to the train. A rush of black leather
exited, accompanied by shouted orders. The troops surrounding the
train trotted to their vehicles. The Italian border guards stood back,
melting into the shadows, mere spectators on their own soil. Two
burly Gestapo men stepped down from a train car, holding a civilian
by his elbows, guiding him to the waiting sedan. The civilian looked
around, his head swiveling wildly as he sought some way out. He
dug in his heels, but the two goons carried him easily. Then he
dropped, as if he'd fainted. One of the Germans pulled back his leg
to give him a kick, and all of a sudden the prisoner was up, pushing
his tormentor and twisting free. He ran along the train, his arms
pumping, and leapt from the platform, hitting the ground hard,
rolling and coming up at a run, limping as one leg threatened to give
out. Pistol shots cracked and gray dust kicked up at his feet. Then
an MP40 submachine gun sounded, the harsh burst slamming into
his back. He took another two steps, perhaps not realizing that death
had burrowed into muscle and bone. His momentum propelled him
forward, almost in a cartwheel, until his body fell limply across the
track. The sigh of steam flowed from the locomotive again, a
mournful sound that seemed to apologize for the sudden death of a
passenger so close to his final destination.
The Germans pushed the Italian border guards forward, ordering
them to retrieve the body. As they grabbed the fellow by his feet and
pulled, they left a streak of crimson that pointed, like an arrow, to
the Swiss side.
"Lucky fellow," Philby said. "That was at least quick."
"One of yours?"
"No. Some poor bastard on the run. Deserter, maybe. Probably
betrayed by some other chap looking to save his own skin. Here we
go," he said as the gate was raised and the train finally lurched forward,
its giant steel wheels rolling over the bloodstains as it left Nazi
The train arrived at the platform, and lights switched on above
us as the sun gave up and set below the looming mountains. To the
south, a blanket of darkness settled over occupied Italy, where the
blackout was complete, not a glimmer allowed to guide Allied
bombers. The Swiss side seemed gaudy in comparison, bright lights
shining on gray pavement and orange tile roofs. Maybe I'd gotten
used to the blackout in London, but the glare of streetlights and
lamps was blinding. I shaded my eyes and strained to see into the
compartments as they rolled by, the train moving slowly until its
caboose was safely on neutral ground.
The compartment doors opened, and the passengers spilled out
with a mix of nervous chatter and ashen faces. Some looked like
businessmen, others refugees. Wartime travel to a neutral country
provided for odd traveling companions. Then I saw them, two cars
down: a procession of black habits, led by an older nun. They wore
cloaks against the cold and white wimples encased their faces, their
black veils prohibiting sideways glances, their eyes focused on the
ground at their feet.
"Hold," Philby said in a low voice, placing his hand on my arm.
"Don't say anything. We don't know who may be watching the
I saw her. Not her face, but her walk. Nothing could hide that
confident swing of her shoulders, the aristocratic posture, the determined
steps. It was Diana, her head bowed a fraction less than the
others. The nun in the lead said something in Italian, and they turned
to enter the open doors of the station. Diana glanced up, looking in
all directions. Her eyes met mine and flashed wide for a split second,
then disappeared as she assumed the obedient, demure posture of a
nun following her abbess.
Philby and I fell in a few steps behind them as I watched for signs
of anyone trailing us. I pulled my hat brim low over my eyes, blending
in with the crowd, while trying to spot anyone who didn't. I was in
civilian clothes, and if it hadn't been for the threat of German agents
in similar attire, not to mention the blood on the tracks, I might have
talked myself into enjoying this Swiss interlude. Instead, I saw every-
thing with suspicious eyes, not trusting that anyone was who he said
he was. I wasn't, Diana certainly wasn't, so how could we assume we
were surrounded by harmless Swiss neutrals?
We trailed the procession of nuns out onto the street. They
walked up the Corso San Gottardo, each clutching a small black
suitcase, dodging the pedestrians strolling along the thoroughfare.
Wind whipped at their cloaks and veils, the black fabric snapping
like flags in a parade. Passing restaurants and shops with unaccustomed
light spilling out into the street, the nuns made a beeline for
the Chiesa di Santa Maria, a bronze-roofed church in a small, parklike
setting. Trees surrounded two buildings to the rear, and I guessed
this was where they'd be staying. As they entered the church, Philby
guided me down a narrow side street, where a gray sedan sat idling.
We got in the backseat and the driver took off without a word, circling
around to the rear of the church. The car stopped and Philby
got out, holding the car door open. A church door opened, the light
from inside briefly framing the silhouette of a nun, who dashed to
the car and slid into the backseat. Philby slammed the door and got
in the front, a split second before the driver accelerated and sped
along the gravel drive and out onto the road.
"Billy," Diana said, glancing toward Philby, her eyes showing a
curious mix of surprise, joy, and fear. "Why are you here? Is something
"Nothing wrong, my dear," said Philby. "I simply owed Lieutenant
Boyle a favor and brought him along to see the sights."
"Then you_have_been busy since I last saw you," Diana said to
me, her face relaxing. We'd last seen each other in Naples, a month
ago, before an assignment from Uncle Ike cut our time together short.
"Yes. I asked if I could tag along when your mission was finished.
I never thought you'd be brought out so soon."
"It was . . . sudden," she said. Her voice wavered, and I thought
tears welled up in her eyes, but she regained her composure in an
instant, running the rosary beads she wore through her fingers.
"What's the connection?" Diana asked in a low voice, nodding
"It's a long story."
"They all are," Diana said, as she took my hand in hers and gazed
out the window. She rubbed the moisture away and stared at the
traffic, the streetlights, the glow from windows--all the signs of
normalcy that had become so abnormal in these years of war. She
blinked rapidly as the tears returned, and one dropped onto the back
of my hand.
"Are you okay?" I asked.
"Long and sad," she said. "Every story is so long and so sad." She
gripped my hand until her knuckles turned white. We drove on
through the peaceful streets in silence broken only by the sound of
The Hotel Turconi was located just north of Chiasso. It
sat atop a hill at the start of a wave of foothills and high ridges
cresting the Alps themselves. It was a small place, perfect for
knowing who your fellow guests were, and for watching the winding
road that led up from the border town. When we'd first checked in,
the owner nodded to Philby like a long-time customer, the kind
who liked to be left alone. He didn't blink at our passports, both
Irish, and reserved a table in an alcove for our meals, set apart from
the other diners. Our papers and our names were phony, but the
money Philby handed over wasn't. I hoped he wasn't stingy with
the king's pound notes, since I didn't like the idea of German agents
paying us a visit while we slept.
The owner himself served us. Wild mushroom soup and roasted
duck breast with apples, washed down with a couple of bottles of
Merlot Bianco--from his cousin's vineyard, he was proud to tell us.
It beat dining in London, with all the rationing restrictions, even
though Diana was still dressed as a nun.
"Why don't you change?" I asked as our host cleared the dishes
and Philby fired up his pipe. "Do you need clothes?"
"Kim," Diana said. "Didn't you tell him?"
"Tell me what?" I wanted to know.
"The mission isn't over," she said, lowering her voice. "I needed
to report something in person, so I asked to come out. I'll go back
as soon as I can."
"I will be the one to make that decision, my dear," Philby said in
his best professorial tone. "That's why I didn't tell Boyle. I'm not sure
myself if you should go back. First, I need to hear what was so important,
and how you came to learn of it. The Germans are great ones for
playing games, and it could be false intelligence designed to draw out
an agent, forcing you to take the sort of intemperate action you did."
"This is not the sort of intelligence they would plant," Diana
said. "And I am not intemperate." She drank her wine and set the
glass down hard, punctuating her statement.
"Very well," Philby said, shrugging his acceptance. "We can
discuss the matter later, in private."
"No," Diana said. "This is not something to be hidden away and
kept secret. Billy does work for General Eisenhower, after all." She
made it sound like Philby was an idiot, not her spymaster boss.
"And I am in the business of managing secrets," Philby said. "Not
broadcasting them before their usefulness can be determined."
"I saw a report from the bishop of Berlin, Konrad von Preysing,"
Diana said, ignoring Philby, who refilled his wine glass and eyed her
with faint amusement, as if she were a precocious child on the verge
of misbehavior. "It was sent directly to the pope, and one of his
secretaries typed a copy . . ."
"If you insist on proceeding, move on to the facts," Philby said.
"There is no need to detail your sources for Lieutenant Boyle." It
was a way for him to assert his authority while allowing her to
Diana waited for a heartbeat, then nodded. "Kurt Gerstein is an
Obersturmfuhrer_in the SS. A lieutenant. He joined the Nazis in 1933,
but quickly became disillusioned and spoke out against their antireligious
policies. For his involvement with various Christian youth
groups, he was thrown out of the party, severely beaten, and briefly
imprisoned for anti-Nazi activities."
"So how did he end up in the SS?" Philby asked, an eyebrow
raised in disbelief.
"In early 1941, his sister-in-law died in a mental institution."
"Nazi euthanasia?" Philby asked.
"Yes. At that point, Gerstein became committed to acting against
the regime. He apparently decided the best way to do that was from
within. A few months after her death, he joined the SS. Either they
didn't check his records, or his technical skills made them willing to
overlook them. He had an engineering degree, and had completed
his first year of medical school. So they brought him into the
Technical Disinfection Department of the SS."
"What, do they clean garbage cans?" I asked, wondering where
all this was leading.
"No. They are in charge of disinfecting the clothes of all the Jews
they kill. Jews, Gypsies, Communists, opponents of the regime,
anyone who is sent to the extermination camps."
I'd read about the concentration camps, where enemies of the
Nazis were sent, and I knew the SS and the Gestapo had no qualms
about shooting whomever they wanted. But this felt different. A whole
structure dedicated to extermination? It was bigger than wanton
slaughter, beyond evil, beyond believing. Everything I'd read or seen
in newsreels about the Nazis made me angry. This made me sick.
"We know the Nazis have treated the Jews terribly," Philby said.
"As they have many others. We know many die in the camps in the
east, but extermination? Surely they use them for labor, and many
die, but you can't mean wholesale slaughter?" Philby's normally suave
demeanor faltered for a moment as he took in what Diana was
"The Technical Disinfection Department also provides a gas
called Zyklon B. It is used in gas chambers, in large quantities," Diana
said, her lips compressed, as if the words were too terrible to let loose
into the world. "Kurt Gerstein is in charge of the delivery of Zyklon
B. He delivered large quantities to a number of camps in Poland,
including a huge complex of camps at a place called Auschwitz."
"Unbelievable," Philby said, and I couldn't tell if he simply did
not credit Diana, or was stunned at the enormity of what she was
"In 1942, he visited several concentration camps, including
Belzec, in Poland. While he was there, he witnessed the gassing of
three thousand Jews. This was what he had joined the SS for. To
gather evidence of outright extermination. He described what he had
seen to the Swedish diplomat Baron von Otter, and the papal nuncio
in Berlin, Father Cesare Orsenigo, as well as to the bishop. All promised
to send word to London, and each did. When nothing but silence
came of that, Bishop von Preysing wrote directly to the pope."
"Diana," Philby said, leaning forward to whisper to her. "Are you
sure this chap isn't mad? Surely I would have heard of such a report
coming from Berlin. Perhaps he had an attack of conscience and
fabricated the worst he could imagine."
"You don't understand," Diana said. "What do you think is happening
in these camps? Gerstein witnessed it all, the trains coming
in, the few able-bodied separated to be worked to death, all the rest
ushered into the gas chambers. They have them marked as showers,
to disinfect for typhus. Jewish trustees tell them to fold their clothes
and leave them on benches, to remember where they left them. Then
they enter the chamber and the doors are locked behind them. The
Zyklon B is dropped through vents in the ceiling. In twenty minutes
they open the doors and pull out the dead. They pry the gold from
their teeth and incinerate the bodies."
"The very Zyklon B that Herr Gerstein so thoughtfully provided?"
"Yes. So that he could witness what was being done. So he could
tell the world. But so far, the world hasn't listened." She slammed
the table with the flat of her hand and her glass fell, staining the
tablecloth with wine before it rolled off the table and shattered.
Philby sat in silence, haunted perhaps by visions of mass killing,
or worried that he hadn't been privy to reports smuggled out of Nazi
Germany. Finally he stirred enough to chastise Diana about overreacting
to Vatican gossip and to tell me to keep quiet about what
I'd heard, and then left the table.
"What do you think, Billy?" Diana said, now that we were alone.
I knew Diana was counting on me to believe her, to back her up. I
squirmed in my seat, trying to find the words she wanted to hear,
but I didn't know what to say. It was all so insane, it was hard to
come up with a logical thought. Then I remembered Sammy.
"I had a friend in high school, Sammy Vartanian. He was
Armenian, and his father used to curse the Turks for killing over a
million Armenians in 1915. I'd never heard of it, and I figured maybe
Sammy's old man was off his rocker. So I looked it up in the encyclopedia.
Sure enough, there is was. The Armenian Genocide. I
figure if something like that happened a few decades ago, and I never
heard of it, then you could be right. Besides, I believe in you."
"I'd heard talk among Jews we have hidden in Vatican City, but
I thought it might be nothing more than rumors. Not the deportations
and shootings, all that is well known. It's the sheer scale of it
all. Like a giant assembly line of death."
"But you believe this report from Gerstein?"
"Yes. It all checks out. Bishop von Preysing vouches for him, and
he's completely reliable. He's been anti-Nazi and quite outspoken
about it, unlike most other German bishops. And thank you."
"For believing in me." Diana reached her hand toward mine, and
her skin held an electrical charge. I pulled away, looking around to see
if anyone had seen this Irish civilian hold hands with a nun. Diana
blushed, the red flush stark against the white surrounding her face.
"Let's go," she said, and I followed her up the stairs, aware of the
movement in her hips beneath the black cloth. My heart was beating
fast, and I wondered if I should feel guilty about desiring her so soon
after discussing the fate of millions. Then I wondered if I was going
to hell for lusting after a nun, even a phony one. That made my heart
beat even faster, but I didn't have time to decide which to worry
about, since we were in front of Diana's door. Guilt and hell were
pretty much the same thing in my upbringing, and I knew I could
never explain this situation to a priest and ask for absolution.
"Listen," I said, as she turned the key in the lock. "I'll understand
if you want to be alone, you know, after your long trip and all."
Diana eyed me, then the hallway. It was empty. The only sounds
were those drifting up from the restaurant two floors below. She
pressed her body against mine, her face warm, her eyes half closed,
her lips moist as we kissed. Our arms encircled each other, and I
tasted the sweetness of her mouth and the saltiness of the tears that
streaked her cheek. I reached for the unlocked door, pushed it open,
and we entered like two dancers in tune with the music of longing.
I kicked it shut as Diana pulled the white coif from her head, letting
her long hair loose. She carefully removed the cross she wore around
her neck and the rosary beads from her woolen belt, placing them
on a small table by the gable window. Then she removed her scapular--
the black apron draped over her shoulders--and covered them
"I've missed you," she said, kicking off her shoes and wiping a
"Is that why you're crying?" I asked, taking her in my arms,
feeling warm flesh beneath the nun's habit and trying not to think
about all the real nuns I'd known. This was not the time for visions
of Sister Mary Margaret.
"I don't know. It's everything. The war, the innocent deaths, all
the lives ripped apart. It's too much to bear. I don't want to think
about it anymore, at least not now."
We struggled out of our clothes, not wanting to separate for a
second, eager to release our bodies from the confines of belts and
buttons. I laughed when Diana pulled off her tunic, half expecting
all the saints in Switzerland to barge through the door.
"What's the matter, haven't you ever seen a nun undress before?"
I laughed some more and Diana giggled as the pile of clothes
by the side of the bed grew, layers of her undergarments mixing with
my civvies, until we were under the duvet, basking in the warmth of
our flesh on a cold winter night, safe from the murderous conflict
that threatened from all points of the compass. The world had
shrunk down to the two of us in this room. The war had burned
away all the petty arguments, all the ill will that we'd let come
between us. There were no questions about tomorrow or the next
day, no expectations of the future, no wondering what would become
of us. Fear, blood, and death had washed us clean, leaving only what
survived, or what had burrowed deep into our hearts, as far from the
danger as it could go and still be remembered. We caressed each
other, coaxing those memories out, letting them breathe the air of
joy and freedom before we put them away again.
We laughed, but I can't say we were happy. We made love, but it
was desperate and burning hot, as if we were keeping evil at bay by
the very act. We cried, but our woes were so small that I was ashamed
of the tears. We held each other, and knew it would not last.
We slept, but could not rest.
Library of Congress subject headings for this publication:
Boyle, Billy (Fictitious character) -- Fiction.
World War, 1939-1945 -- Italy -- Fiction.
Soldiers -- Crimes against -- Fiction.
Americans -- Italy -- Fiction.
Serial murder investigation -- Fiction.